well, today has come and almost over...only five more hours then i can get rest. i don't get enough rest. stress is probably the most reason of all. i just have to keep pushing forward towards Jesus..the only one who can help me. i have too much on my mind..for example...why do i keep losing so much weight..im hoping that im not sick or something..i have a kid to take care of.. the oldest one doesn't need me anymore, so i have come to accept..but, the other one is so lost and lonely... rebellious, mouthy,....such are most teenagers.........im sure there are some out there who do show respect,but, this one..not too much..... i wonder if anyone reads this or not...but, i don't really care......... im gonna make it through this and things will straighten out soon, i just have a gut feeling......... what are you struggling with today......out of control kids, husbands or wives who abuse you and think they have to control every fiber of your being? i don't know.. all you can do is give it to Jesus and ask HIM to be your guide and help you to follow HIM. He will,but, you have to ask. When you don't get an answer,it doesn't mean that He said no...sometimes He just wants you to wait and He has something for you to learn. Lean on HIM..not on people..They will let you down everytime.... dependence on people is an awful thing,because it keeps you tied down,unable to move, almost paralyzes you at times......i know, easier said than done.... peace out.................