Good morning...i hope all of you have a very nice Thanksgiving. I on the other hand am not looking forward to it at all. I have a son who is not talking to me right now and it's just tearing me apart. I don't look forward to the holidays because of that. anyway, since this is my blog i guess i can write whatever i want to write and spell anyway that i want. how did your day go yesterda? Mine didn't go so well and today i feel not so hot. i have a doc appt. because of 4 messed up discs in my neck and back and just don't feel like going. hard to go when u feel depressed. i think i would like to just crawl under rock somewhere........ how do u actually tell someone the truth about things? I have so much on my mind and if you say this or that then you are the one who is wrong, ya da , ya da....makes you look like the bad guy and i really don't do too well with that. things are building up and i think im bout to blow.......... i know that i am supposed to be in a joyous mood because of all i have learned being a christian but i don't know how to get to that point. when u are forced to do something you don't want to do it makes you rebellious and angry....... so, what do i do and how long will i put up with it? that is the question. i can see that this blog is not one of encouragement,but, of depression,resentment and i am sure self pity.....that sounds awful,doesn't it? But, maybe it will help to get it out somehow. It's windy and cloudy outside and cold and that doesn't help me any at all. let's see.....hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.........how can i change feeling this way? i've heard that we should pray unceasingly so i will try that and i know i will feel better soon,so, if i do that. then this whole blog will basically be for nothing...is that right? all i can say is that i know the answer but i have yet to act on it so what the hell is taking me so long just to do it? I'll work on it today and tomorrow i'll give you the answer that i came up with. If anyone reads this feel free to put in your input........ til tomorrow.........................